Christmas

Being a good ol' Indian living in Britain, Christmas fails to pass by without excitement. Except for this year. I mean when I was younger, Mum did a bit of a dinner, and there was some presents; I remember picking out my present from Wilkinson (a really awesome shop in Britain, hmm like Walmart but a much more smaller company). One particular year, I remember walking around the shop with a fairy which I picked out. And yes this is how Christmas worked in our family. We never really celebrate it with our relatives either, nice family thing with food. As years go past, Christmas for me, now has just become a big ball of dread. And probably lot's of arguments 'cause we're not doing something or we're doing something wrong. Plus we don't really do presents anymore, just what we buy the next day in the sales. Lovely right.
Even New Years is really depressing. My sister stays up by herself, and the rest of us go sleep. I guess we're not really the most exciting family to do stuff with.

I guess we make all the food and stuff because it's something different. Getting out of the usual routine of everyday life. But really if we just have curry for dinner on Tuesday, I'm not really bothered. This is coming from someone who "supposedly" loves to cook and wants to go into cooking. Yeah, wonderful stuff really.

I guess it'll be different soon, my sister finally getting a full time job, the prospect of a nice Indian boy coming into the family should be interesting. I'm dreading it, but then again I seem to be dreading everything. Ahh I really need to get out of this ball of misery and be excited for something. Maybe Christmas and New Years isn't really appealing cause well our way of celebrating is just downright nothing.
Meh, oh but I'm partly excited for the sales, to buy stuff!
I guess that counts? Haha that didn't make me sound shallow at all!


In other news, it's a Sunday today and we got post!

Beans

Flying babies

Heello!

I had my first driving lesson today! And no I did not kill anybody or anything. However I did nearly bump into a lamp post. Also I kept on pressing on the gas too quickly, leading me to go fast than I actually wanted, this lead the instructor to comment on it. "We don't really want to go to fast, as we're never sure when anything is going to pop out. Like children." .. I have never been so proud of my self, I was driving and keeping a straight face. As all I could do in that moment, was imagine a women giving birth and a baby just flying across the road. The experience was just amazing, and I'm so looking forward to doing some more driving next Saturday!
I booked the lesson early today, at 8 o'clock, and my dad kept saying I shouldn't have, as I would get rubbish experience, as not many cars were on the road. But secretly I was glad cause when I did see cars moving it was a bit ahhhhhhhhh cars! Moving cars! Going to dieeeeee!
I must say I controlled myself brilliantly, and I'm just looking forward to doing some more driving. It was just brilliant overall.

The instructor did keep laughing at me, due to the constant turning too much and going on to the curb.
So yeah, that was the highlight of my day today. Oh and Nette came down, and we had chocolate cake which was wonderful. I make good cake. Oh and her company was grand, of course!
Oh I'm going to see The Hobbit on Wednesday, which is pretty exciting.
Anyway, I need to go do some work. I have two exams in about 3 weeks. Lovely.

Beans

Life's little bites of joy

Life is just full of surprises, isn't it.
Nothing surprising has happened but just stuff happens, and I care to share it with you my lovelies. Whether you care or not :D

So as I told you about the whole that boy and my friend situation, well since Sunday they are now officially together. Lovely isn't it. I spent all of last week either avoiding them, or well seeing them touchy. Funny considering "my friend" repeatedly told me she hates public affection. So yeah..
I'm not annoyed that they are together, or unhappy about it, at all. I mean I hope they stay together and are completely happy for as long as possible. And I truly am happy for both of them. Why should I stand in the way of what makes other people happy? But what annoys me, is the way their thing came about. Not once did she come to me, and say I like him, and this is what's happening, Instead I get from other people, "Omg Beena, I thought you were with him, and I thought she was your friend." I mean I'll deal with it, and I think everyone knows now, must be blind idiots if not. But I had to go ask her, and even then she wasn't straight up about them. And I got told "it's not everyone's business but I don't want to hurt you" from her. Seriously, that just annoyed me. Especially as in her mind she likes to consider me as a close friend. Hahahahhahaha makes me laugh to be honest, but least I know how she treats her friends.

I guess I am being slightly unfair, as it was me who wanted to be friends with him, but I mean seriously that was just so quick. Less than a week. Just wow. I expected it from him, but not her

Blah, they are going out now, nothing more to it, I mean all of that is the past now. I still get the "why are you being so nice about it Beena" .. but I feel that is mainly due to the fact that I don't really care much about her, or the situation. It's their life. I don't think I can see her as I did before. I feel like something is just missing, but I being nice, mainly as she's in my English Lit class, and well I really don't want things to get awkward. I had to deal with another awkward friendship breaking down last year. Hence me being nice to her, but I really have no interest anymore. I guess I'm just annoyed with the manner she went about it. Disappointed would fit the feeling better.

Yup. And hopefully this post will be the last of the stupid topic.

Merry Dreams my loves
Beans

It's Will.i.am and Britney bitch

So music is now bad accents, speaking and a stupid beat. Oh and about four sentences which are just repeated throughout the 4 minutes. Any more would be a blessing to our ears but that's not artists are for. They're not supposed to be lyrical geniuses. No not that, thinking that would just be completely potty.
 I mean what do artists really care about?   It really can't be about good music anymore, hence shit like this is being released all the time. Oh yeah, I remember! Money. And the ridiculous amount of money people are paying the artists for this shit just because they're famous and they want to be what everyone else will be into, is just disgusting. And then there's the stupid product placements the famous people are now doing.
So yeah was my discovery today and it make me chuckle. Enjoy

And to you idiots who create this rubbish;
I want to scream and shout ... at you. And no I will not turn that shit up, because that shit is shit.

HAPPY DECEMBER!

HALLO

I feel generally happy today! Unlike the entire week where I was sulking in my misery, due to my period, trying to figure out what I felt/ getting over the guy, and seeing my close friend and him getting closer and liking each other. Oh and school work.

I'm feeling rather stressed out, as I have my entire English folder due in on Tuesday, and another important essay due in on Friday for English Lit. AHHHHH *PULLING HAIR OUT*
So that's my life.

Today I realised properly that I don't really care about the whole boy situation  That's his life, and her life and if they both fancy each other, I don't really care. I found out yesterday that she thinks that she likes him, and well I have sort of been avoiding him the entire week but he has been following my friend around like a sheep. Haha that sounds a tad cruel, not literally like that, but he is always with her. However any idiot would be able to tell he has moved on, and fancies her.
 I escaped the crap, and I'm really glad I suggested that we just stay friends. I don't have to deal with it. However he has noticed that I haven't been hanging out with him and my close friend. Hence a text going "how come you haven't you been hanging out with us as much" .. and my excellent reply of "what do you mean, I do"
Hahahahaha yeah, I didn't really know how to get out of that. But I am all back to normal Beans!
YAY

I need to do my lovely work anyway.
Toodles my dears, Have a lovely day!